Wow! It has been a really long time since I’ve blogged. I haven’t even checked in over here in quite awhile. Since my summer school session ended I have been knee deep in creative projects around the house. I have tried very hard not to use my brain at all. I still have the Thomas Witherow booklet sitting by my bedside – unread. I haven’t even been reading my favorite blogs very consistently. But I will get back into the stride soon. My projects around the house are dwindling, and the ones I don’t get to will soon fall to the end of the to do list (kind of like the Witherow booklet), to be picked up again next break.
My life seems to flow in waves. Ebbs and tides. I try to infuse balance, but I tend to be obsessive. Whatever holds my attention, really holds my attention and everything else falls to the wayside. I find my way back to them again when the current obsession fades and I return to a former obsession.
Sometimes though I just need a change of scenery. I need to shake things up; I need to get some things done that I have pushed aside during busy times. A mixture of both of these things has been happening. But this has also been a season of re evaluating. Looking at myself and my priorities and making small decisions here and there. I’m trying to be less obsessive and learn to incorporate new ideas in more realistic ways, so that the new things and ideas are explored, but the rest of my life doesn’t get set aside.
I’ve actually done a decent job of that, although the blog, and my usual study, has been set aside temporarily. School will start back up in a few weeks and life will again get hectic and hairy and ironically I’ll probably spend more time blogging. My priorities are shifting a bit; I’m incorporating new routines into my life that I never thought I would. But I still have to figure out how to work in some other things as well. And I have to figure out how to do all that and continue my schooling. It will work. Probably not the way I think it will, because I usually try to outpace God. I run ahead and make plans, and the Father has to gently pull me back into reality.
I know this is all very vague and pointless, but that’s a little how things are in my head right now. The ideas, the thoughts, are swishing around my brain like cake batter. Once they have time to bake, they will come out looking completely different. Whole and formed, but who knows what flavor?
In my quest for balance I have had to shift aside some things that I love, in order to make room for things that are necessary. For example: I love to study, blog, read, but my children have to eat and my house should be clean. It is sometimes difficult for me to include all these things into my day. Either I study or I cook and clean. This is what I mean about becoming obsessive. I feel sure that normal people the world over do all these things at once. They carve out portions of time for each of the things that are important to them and they do those things within that time frame and then move on to the next thing. This way studying gets done during study time, cleaning gets done during cleaning time, etc.
That sounds so easy. For some reason this is a difficult concept for me to work out in real life. But I’m working on it, and I hope soon to include regular blogging to my list of time slots.
